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I have been feeling completely and totally motivated! Motivated to be a success. At work and at home. Some times I fall off of tract but i easily kick myself back on track. I want to be the best at what i do. I also want to do the best for my children. Not saying that I havent been doing my best from the start, Just now I am pushing the line on what is my best. Is trying and calling it my best really my best?? I am starting to think differently and to say that just because I tried that it was my best is starting to feel like an easy way out. Now if I fail and was doing my best than Id rather fail and give it my all than take an easy way out saying that it is my best.... when really I was only "trying". No time to try in this day only time to do! I want to be able to give my children and husband things the need, deserve and heck I want to be able to give them what they want. I wanna get what I want. Last year was basically a year of "needs". And I need more than I s...

So where has time gone yet again??? Seems as if this month has came and went. Yet we have had so much accomplished and so much cherished. Changing your frame of thought and way of thinking really changes the way, people or events that happen in your life. Rolling in 2010 with a fresh and good vibes type of way. Loving it for the most part. Kinda hard when at times it just seems so easy to just dwell on the negative. And grumble or give into being negative. But that NEEDS to change and I feel it happening slowly. Gradually but still happening. Tresilla is growing into such a young little woman. She speaks so clear and has NO problem expressing herself. Some of the things that she says just amazes me. She is able to tell the difference between some of her letters. And identifies it with her classmates first name. I love that she is learning. And she loves it too. Taqorrie is the exact opposite of Tresilla. Tresilla being cautious, soft and very careful. Taqorrie is a head on, not afraid,...

Tell me what is the correct way to "act out" to a situation that you dont agree with or dont fully support. Is being vocal and speaking up the propper thing to do or is keeping to yourself because ultimately voicing your option wont change the situation or make a difference because you have no place to speak up on? For me I chose to keep quiet and say NOTHING and still I was approched on it. I feel like i was being complete and totally appropriate. But I quess others felt differently. FML type of situations. And to think that today I woke up feeling like it WAS gonna be a great day. Oh ehll it will be a great day because at the end of the day I am not the one that needs to sleep with the situation! I should just stop giving a SHIT????? Or what man. I dont understand I really dont. How can this be a damned if you do and damend if you dont type of situation????? Yet again I dont understand,im puzzled. So really what is the right way to deal with a situation. Man I need a break...

2009 Has come and gone and as i think back.... Well just alot of working. I do treasure all the little things that 2009 has brought me. There were sad times, happy times and even times I wish I could just forget. But to me it all narrows down to being able to lean on Family. Most days we take our families for granted. That they will always be there or always accept what you are ok with.... But this year its time to slow things up a bit for me and my family. Time to not take each other for granted but be greatful for one another. 2009 has brought yet another loss to our family. My mothers mom passed the day after Mothers Day. In my heart all though we lost her I gained a closer bond with my mother. Having loss 2 granmothers within a 8 months span. That has truely opened up my eyes to how lucky I am to still have my mom around. If she is cooking for me, teaching me something about motherhood or just being there as my best friend like she always has been I will truely take it all in! I wa...